Not all posts are the good times

It Wednesday morning and we are getting ready for work and school. Things are going relatively smooothly. I have time once to do something like curl it to my hair. But as we get ready to leave, I try to put Alexus hair up and she has a major melt down b/c it isn't like her teacher does it. At this point, I'm boiling. She throws herself down on the garage floor. I go to pick her up and put her in the car seat and you just hear the muscle in my back shred or tear. I knew that was it...the exact same thing happened in the spring when Bill was out of town. I was so upset. Then, I proceeded to have the fit b/c I knew I should have done that and I knew this injury would take me out of doing much for the next two days plus out of exercise a week or more. I got her in the car but bawled the whole way there. She got a heck of spanking too. I probably shouldn't have even gone to work but I had a important meeting and I knew I could either hurt at home with my mind on it or hurt at work with something to keep my mind off how upsetting it was. The one good thing is bill happened to be at our PCPs for a appt. I asked him beg our dr. to call in something for me b/c the same exact thing just happened that happened just 4 mths ago. TG he did. It was very painful around 1 or so then tried to stand up and I could get much past a 45 degree angle as far as standing straight up. I was just sick at all that had transpired. The way I reacted to her fit and much more. Of course, I came home took my pain meds and feel asleep. My mom came over and help us with Alexus. When will I learn not to pick her up especially when I am upset and she is in a sitting position. I hope after this happened twice now that I've learned my lesson. See not all posts are hunky dorey posts about all the cool things we do. I certainly pray that 4 yo is better than 3.