Eat Pray Love

I was able to get out today and catch a movie that I've wanted to see for awhile now. Very heart wrenching. Julia R. reminded me so of my friend. I so wish I could take off for a year and find myself. I came home to the same ole mess of a life. I say that literally from a messy perspective. I'll clean the kitchen countertops 5 times a day it seems just to get cluttered or messy again but I'm so grateful for my family. i just all the other things weren't so cluttered from our house to my thoughts. My head seems so much full of gunk. I worry about this and that. I wish I could clear it like she did. I worry about Alexus. I related to the pres of walt disney that spoke at her church today about how different his daughter and son are. He spanked his son maybe once in a year or two and his daughter maybe 10 times a day. I feel like alex is in trouble most of the day. I worry bout how we discipline her. is it working? what are we doing wrong? will she turn out okay or rebel. Am I selfish b/c I want to run away from the difficulties of parenting alot. Do I too often? Maybe I just need more than a short break . I will be grateful when nanna is here. Eva not sleeping/ up a couple of times a night takes its toll afterwhile.